I wrote this post (and a few others) while on a plane 3.28.14.
I’m still on that plane somewhere over the Midwest. I’m on a roll with my thoughts, so I figured I’d just keep writing and worry about setting up the blog and posting all of these later. Since I’m just now starting to blog even though I’ve been on this journey for over a year, I thought I’d make a timeline of what I consider to be milestones as a way to quickly summarize where I’ve been but also to refer to so I can record my emotions around each milestone at a later time.
March 2012 – I get into the New York City Marathon
October 2012 – I stop taking birth control pills.
November 2012 – My grandmother passes away.
December 2012 – I start to realize something isn’t right with my body. I reach out to my sister. Sister introduces me to the book Taking Charge of Your Fertility. My mind is blown about how much I don’t know about my body!
February 2013 – First doctor’s appointment with blood work and first round of progesterone. We start Couple-to-Couple League classes to learn a 2nd version of NFP.
April 2013 – New doctor = fail. We find a whole new understanding of Theology of the Body and how we want to approach this thanks to CCL.
May 2013 – Another new doctor – this one’s trained in NaPro!
June/July 2013 – Another marathon, an unexpected job search.
August 2013 – A big move, a new job, a disappointing ultrasound, hope with thyroid medication.
September-December 2013 – The Darkest Days. Finding PPVI, the Creighton Model, the most hopeless I’ve ever felt.
3rd Sunday of Advent 2013 – Hope. A new perspective, sudden peace. Anticipation for good things to come.
December 2013 – I finally start getting answers through PPVI's bloodwork and ultrasound.
March 2014 – Surgery. More answers. A real plan!
I’m so glad I’m writing this down. I’m foggy on some of the dates already! The dates aren’t so important, but I really do want a decent record of this time in my life. I blogged pretty seriously in college, when LiveJournal was king and blogging wasn’t “cool” or very accepted yet. I actually deleted that blog because I decided I didn’t want a log of that time in my life anymore. I was in a different place spiritually and morally then. Now that it’s been a few years since I deleted it, there are times when I wish I hadn’t. I think any record of how you saw the world and dealt with the good, bad, and ugly is worth having. At least that’s how I feel about it today.
God, thank You for the ability to track this experience in a way that I can keep and share. I am very grateful for where I am spiritually today. Please keep me close to you and allow me to feel Your presence and Your love, and please do the same for anyone reading this.