My surgery is tomorrow. I'm surprisingly calm and ready. I really feel like I've turned it over to God, and I trust that He will not let me down. By that, I mean that I trust He will protect me and take me to where I need to go (and that place might not be conceiving a child).
We were in Wisconsin over the weekend for my niece's First Holy Communion, and a family friend that is a priest was there for her special day. During the mass, the idea of asking Fr. Igor to anoint me popped into my head. So, after the buzz of celebration died down after mass, I asked Fr. Igor to anoint me, and he said yes. The pastor allowed him access to the parish's anointing materials, and he anoited me with my husband and parents present. It was so beautiful. The words were so fitting that tears streamed down my cheeks. What a wonderful experience.
My parents are here in Iowa with us to help my husband take care of me for the next few days. I love that they came all the way down from Wisconsin again to take care of me and be here for Kris Kringle. I was supposed to be off work today to start my medical leave and prep (ahem-poop) for my procedure, but there was some drama at work that kept me busy all day today. I was hoping to write a more thorough post, but I just don't have the time remaining today. I need to pack my back and continue to "prep."
I will share that Kris Kringle and I went to mass together this morning, and our priest's homily was very fitting. He talked about leaps of faith. He gave examples of leaps of faith: priests leaving a parish to start at a new one, things like that. This surgery tomorrow is certainly a leap of faith. I do believe that God rewards leaps of faith. I don't know what exactly is waiting on the other side of this surgery, but I do know that my husband will be there, my family will be there, and God will be there, and at the end of the day, that's all I really need.
I'll check in when I'm feeling better - hopefully in a few days!
God, I am ready to take this leap of faith. I believe in Your plan. Please guide my medical team tomorrow and help this leap of faith end with no complications and a closer relationship with You. Keep my husband calm with Your presence.